I was raised in a dysfunctional household where it was common that the energy in the home was a mixture of love and turmoil. I have come to understand how spiritually confusing and damaging this was to my growth in retrospect. I was given great opportunity and had been groomed by caring relatives to believe that Jesus Christ loved me and was always with me, but I did not put much energy into faith-based studies, lifestyle or discipline. As time went on I began to drown more and more in destructive and wayward consumption and life choices, resulting in a pure idolatry-centered, pleasure seeking, self-knowledge life with skeptical agnosticism.
As I continued to live life by my will, able to skim and scrape by with presentable accomplishments, behind closed doors my soul was becoming more and more buried in compulsion toward drugs, alcohol and other addictive behaviors. I became very much a puppet to substance use and fixes; I was losing hope in a life of service and purpose.
In a God ordained incident, I met the woman who would become my wife, a member of Living Hope Community Church. She encouraged me to seek out a meeting held at the church on Sunday nights for substance abuse recovery. It was there that the blessed seed of faith was planted, nurtured, and later secured in me. I received non-judgmental care and support from this group and gained friends from the church community that I now consider family. I continued to surrender my need to live a lifestyle of substance abuse and turned with zeal towards recovery and faith. I willingly lost myself in the word and the principles of recovery at the same time, diligently seeking a greater understanding of purpose and healing. The faith seed in me encouraged me to continue to be open to the bible and hold fast to it even when struggling, which fostered in me a revelation that enlightened new ways of viewing my condition, spiritual purpose, and the solution to my cultivated spiritual disease. Faith offered me the most priceless purpose and growth.
I now live a life with an evolving understanding of the human condition with principles rooted in the Word of God. The scriptures offered me the guidelines to understanding my faithful purpose as a member of a family and community. Now I’m a person pursuing endeavors of greater spiritual health and value. Faith and recovery have structured my life to embrace the glory that God provides. Faith in God’s Word has helped me unravel some of the most debilitating spiritual complications I fought within myself. My life has been forever changed in remarkable and beautiful ways. A mentor and brother in Christ shared at my father’s memorial service: “God doesn’t make mistakes.” I trust this more and more each day as my faith continues to blossom.
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