When I was a teenager, I was a mess. I was unhappy and I didn’t know what to do with my life. I was stuck at home and that wasn’t a good situation. I wanted to get out of it, but I didn’t know how to. I hadn’t been praying or going to church in at least two years. I didn’t even want to acknowledge that God existed because that meant the way I was living was wrong. I didn’t have the same standards that a Christian would have. I wasn’t as thoughtful as a Christian would be. I wasn’t thinking of people, rather I was only thinking about myself and how unhappy I was in my life.
I didn’t want to go back to church. I thought I would be judged and criticized for walking away for a while. When I wound up going back to church, I only went out of a sense of obligation to a friend who wanted to go. At first, I felt incredibly uncomfortable, but I was welcomed back with open arms. People were glad to see me, greeted me, smiled at me and told me that they missed me.
I still wasn’t sure about my faith. I could come back, but I didn’t feel that I was ever going to be good enough to be a real Christian. That was the biggest problem. I had been really serious about God when I was fourteen or fifteen, but when I walked away. It was especially difficult because I didn’t have anyone in my family who was following suit. I didn’t have anyone who was faithful to God and going to church and being a Christian. I didn’t feel like I could do it. I didn’t feel like I was ever going to be good enough for God or being a Christian so I quit.
However, when I returned, God began changing my heart and doing a miraculous thing in me. My biggest revelation was when I realized that he was going to help me get there. He wasn’t just going to quit because I wasn’t good enough right then. He was going to help me get where he wanted me to be—where I could be used for his glorification.
God became important in my life because he’s the first one to ever show me unconditional love. He accepted me where I was and helped me grow beyond that in the best way possible. He has gently shown me in just the way that I needed what I should work on and when I needed to work on it. He meets me where I am at and he goes from there. He continues to show me things as life goes on.
He has brought amazing people into my life who are more my family than even my earthly family. I could not be more grateful for that. He has brought people into my life who are encouraging, and who are just so loving and understanding and who will stop and give up their time to pray with me and pray for me and help me. We work together to do the things that we want to do for God.
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